The Big Picture????

I am not sure if I am getting the ‘Big Picture’. I mean I have heard of it, I have read about it, I have analyzed it; I have even sought after it. But I am not quite sure what it is, where it exists, where it’s featured. Is it a comedy, a romantic comedy, a thriller, drama? What exactly is the ‘Big Picture’? Every person I know including myself gets wrapped up in seeking out some kind of process to get them to the future, to the next step, to the next scene so to say. But in truth why is it so hard for people to live in the present, why is it so difficult to be one dimensional. Why is it so difficult to have an irrational plot lined up, with random characters and purple skies? Why does everything have to make sense, why do scenes have to go from beginning to end? Why can’t we just decide that life is going to be irrational and beautiful and messy and then begin it, already knowing the finale?

The idea of plans, and lines, and structure is stressing my imagination out. I know that it’s irrational to believe that I can live in this fantasy world for the rest of my life. But it’s not the least to say that I can extend my youth until my body is unwilling to deal with it. I feel like people have been given the gift of an elongated youth time frame, with advances in health and medicine, people see a century pass through their eyes now. And it’s as if people feel that even only slightly into two decades it’s time for them to plan a future. The future will always be there no matter how fast you are able to reach it. People need to slow down and take a stroll. Instead of taking the bus, or the flight, or the freight to get to what lies ahead……take a breath and just breath it all in. If you keep rushing to get to the future ……..you’re going to have no past to talk about when you meet the characters that will complete your plot.

Believe me I haven’t seen the end, and I hope that I won’t be seeing the finale to the ‘Big Picture’ any time soon. But I do know when I get there……that the ending has to be more interesting than white picket fences, daycare expenses, cubicles, 401 k’s, and retirement plans. I don’t want to look back and regret my choices, I do not want to feel like I ever passed an opportunity to see the world, and I do not want to feel like I left anyone behind because I had responsibilities. I just want to know that I felt…..that I truly felt what It was like to see, to dream, to breath, to listen, to live……..too many people watch everyone else live. They watch movies, with scenes, with plots, with love stories, with lines…..and none of them are the characters…….they are all living vicariously through these fictitious characters. I want to be a lead in my own ‘Big Picture’……and I hope the ending will be unpredictable and unexpected. If not......I’ll just create a new plot. I mean how tragic would it be .....to be a supporting chacter in your own 'Big Picture.'